Who am I?

Wow, that is a tough question! Do we ever really know who we are? I feel like my identity changes daily, and some days I find myself asking myself this same question. One thing I do know, is I am a daughter of the King, and I was saved by grace! ( Can I get a hallelujah?) I am a wife, a mother, and now, I am a stay at home mom. I was a teacher (although I don’t believe teachers every really stop being teachers) for 12 years until God blessed my husband and me with a surprise son.

We already had a beautiful daughter, and after a couple miscarriages, and a pretty difficult birth for our daughter, we thought we were done having children. We accepted that we would only have one child, and we even announced to our friends “We are good with one.” However, God likes to keep me humble in big ways, and He is constantly reminding me that He is in control, not me. Shortly after we announced we were done, God decided to add more fun! We now have a precious baby boy who is one of the happiest children I know. Not long after his birth, we began learning of some congenital defects, and after much testing, we finally learned he has a very rare genetic mutation. He sees many doctors and attends a lot of therapy, so he has quickly become my new full time job. I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom, but never really thought it was going to be possible. There I was again, forgetting I’m not in control.

I have been toying with the idea of starting a blog for a few years. I have always enjoyed writing, but I have been hesitant to put my thoughts and my life out there in such a public way. A blog seems much more personal than say, a social media post, so the feeling of vulnerability weighs heavy in my mind. Also, I don’t really have a “niche”. I’m not an awesome photographer, I am just learning to cook (I know, I know), I don’t travel nearly as much as I would like to, and I sure as heck can’t keep a plant alive. I would like to pause for a moment of silence to remember every plant I have ever cared for…………

So, this blog does not really have a main focus, kind of like my brain. It jumps all over the place ALL of the time! Should you choose to follow me on this journey, I cannot promise that you will learn how to do anything new. What I can promise is my open and honest opinions about surviving this thing called life!

I lean on God daily, and literally pray my way through all situations both happy and sad. Am I a Bible expert? No. Did I go to school for ministry? No. Have I experienced God’s grace, strength, and comfort firsthand? Yes. My hope for this blog, is that it helps at least one person smile and know how much he/she is loved. You are never alone, and thank God, neither am I. I would love to connect with others who are also doing their best to make it through each day. Please feel free to reach out to me with any questions you may have about any of my posts. I look forward to sharing my journey with you all.

I don’t know what the future holds, but I know who holds it.